i think it would have been better

i think it would have been better
if i just told you i loved you
right from the start
because i'm a huge coward
and i don't know how to
do that otherwise
because you somehow
scare me so much
and i can't really put a finger on
how you do that to me
because every time i think
about it i shake and i almost
have a nervous breakdown
but you understand why

right?

because every time i
kiss your lips i
feel a little high.
sigh.

or every time you're in my arms
i try to ignore how you charm
just by giving me a smile.
sigh.

i think it would have been better
if i just told you from the start
that i loved you
because i wouldn't have to write this
and give it to you later
because i'm such a coward
i probably wouldn't have given it to you
anyway
now that i think about it
and now that i think about it
i shake and shake and
have a nervous breakdown
but i think
you understand why
you make me feel so high